Overwhelmed

I know this is not the correct place to have my diary but I have an immense feeling that I am doing too much and not dedicating enough time to the people who mean the most to me in my life. Not so say that I don't enjoy every single thing that I am doing, but it seems that when I have a free moment to really spend time with family I always have something else that comes up that takes precedence. What I need to do is to prioritize everything that know that I can take some time out for 'me'. I'm sure this happens to so many people, we feel like we can do it all and in reality there are just not enough hours in the day. Something has to give. Lately it's been my family.. That is the last sacrifice I want to make. The question is what do I need to change, how do I balance everything so I can do everything that makes me happy? That's the million dollar question isn't it...

Only comes once..

It's been a while since my last post and I'm exhausted so this will be a short blog. Everyone is out of the house with the exception of a sleeping baby and my dog, whom are both enjoying the evening in a very productive way which is catching up on sleep. I on the other hand am working on attempting to clear off my desk, which started out with about 7 stacks of things to get done, and now I have cleared it down to one. What an accomplishment. Things have been so overwhelming since Micah came to the world. I feel pulled so many directions because I am fighting what I am naturally supposed to do which is to just let go and relax with my family, spend time with my new baby, and take this amazing experience in. Every day I see his face and know that every minute he is changing and growing. His toothless smiles will soon disappear and in it's place will grow some teeth, every day changing. I look at Maddox and he is nothing like the baby he was, arguably much better now that he can get dressed on his own and maintain his independence rather well, but it is the experience of having that baby that I don't want to let slip away. Time really does pass before our eyes, in a good way. Life goes on and so do we, but being present in this experience that we go through is key. Just have to keep reminding myself of that... Will write soon.