Sunday, January 2, 2011

Remembering Josh

I can't help thinking that Josh was just with us a few years ago, and now, on his 53rd birthday his memory is with me stronger than ever. I wonder what he is doing now. I imagine him on the beach, any beach really, just taking in the beauty and rating the brilliance of the sunsets. Or I can see him with a fantastically delicious dinner right out of Bon Appetit magazine cooking in the kitchen and all of his friends and family around him smiling and laughing. Maddox was with him that year he died and was just over a year old when it happened September 2, 2007.and we tell him stories about Uncle Josh all the time. He knows all about him, and when he asks questions I feel like he is living on. When Micah gets older we will be sure to reminisce over the person Josh was and show him the pictures and tell him the stories of all the beautiful places Josh lived.

My colleague and friend Cath was just talking about a class she took that was all about Rumi. This lead me to some Google exploring and I just came across this saying that is on Rumi's tombstone; "When we are dead, seek not our tomb in the earth, but find it in the hearts of men." -Rumi This is exactly where I think Josh lives on, in our hearts.






Monday, November 15, 2010

Overwhelmed

I know this is not the correct place to have my diary but I have an immense feeling that I am doing too much and not dedicating enough time to the people who mean the most to me in my life. Not so say that I don't enjoy every single thing that I am doing, but it seems that when I have a free moment to really spend time with family I always have something else that comes up that takes precedence. What I need to do is to prioritize everything that know that I can take some time out for 'me'. I'm sure this happens to so many people, we feel like we can do it all and in reality there are just not enough hours in the day. Something has to give. Lately it's been my family.. That is the last sacrifice I want to make. The question is what do I need to change, how do I balance everything so I can do everything that makes me happy? That's the million dollar question isn't it...

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Only comes once..

It's been a while since my last post and I'm exhausted so this will be a short blog. Everyone is out of the house with the exception of a sleeping baby and my dog, whom are both enjoying the evening in a very productive way which is catching up on sleep. I on the other hand am working on attempting to clear off my desk, which started out with about 7 stacks of things to get done, and now I have cleared it down to one. What an accomplishment. Things have been so overwhelming since Micah came to the world. I feel pulled so many directions because I am fighting what I am naturally supposed to do which is to just let go and relax with my family, spend time with my new baby, and take this amazing experience in. Every day I see his face and know that every minute he is changing and growing. His toothless smiles will soon disappear and in it's place will grow some teeth, every day changing. I look at Maddox and he is nothing like the baby he was, arguably much better now that he can get dressed on his own and maintain his independence rather well, but it is the experience of having that baby that I don't want to let slip away. Time really does pass before our eyes, in a good way. Life goes on and so do we, but being present in this experience that we go through is key. Just have to keep reminding myself of that... Will write soon.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Snow Tomorrow

ALL RIGHT!! We are supposed to get some snow in North Carolina. I guess we will have to see it to believe it but it should be coming tomorrow.

So today was such a relaxing day with rain all day. We just sat around the house and just spent time with each other and read some books. This morning Randy and Maddox went out to Bounce-U and then Randy made another trip to the bookstore and to get coffee. MMM MMM He knows what I love...

We are going to start working on a web site but still trying to figure out the basics on our Mac program Go Live...it will be a good project for us to start doing together.

Other than that--there is not much new news. :)

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The world as it is now..

The world turns, isn't that the name of a soap opera on TV right? Well I feel that is our lives now too. We are all trying to keep up and gettting all this new information from the media sources--we are a world that depends on the connection. We depend on each other, but how deep are our connections? What about that time where we can reflect, try to understand about others, develop a real relationship with one another. Where we are not worried about the things we can't change, but work on the things we can in our communities.

I have been trying to keep up on the president's different ways he has been trying to stop this caving in of our economy, he is using the stimulus bill, trying to increase education spending, trying to focus on the war, etc. There are so many things that we are trying to do as a nation. The hard thing is how can we turn around a ship so big, we have already started on a path that lead us to greed, and now we are slowly trying to change the minds and hearts of our people, moreover the people who have had power and control in our nation for so long. I just hope that in the end that the United States will be open to this type of change, which means giving up some things that we have had for a long time. We have been a "I" centered nation, what can we do for me?? Now it seems it is time to change and think what we can do for us. Our children will have to deal with these issues down the line--I just wonder if we all care enough about ALL of the children to do something.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Just needed a little break from my Article Review...

It's Sunday evening...I do dream frequently of a relaxing weekend at the beach sipping on a pina colada and not having a care in the world...then a stench reaches my nose and brings me back to reality. I have a diaper to change, a husband to love, homework to do, never-ending dishes in the sink, and a load of laundry that is piled higher than Mount Everest. It's the way I enjoy my weekends, not to say that I don't cherish every minute of it, because I do. It's the time I get to laugh with Maddox & Randy and take walks outside, just enjoy being with each other. I wouldn't trade it for anything...well..if you catch me at the right time I may tell you something different.

Thanksgiving is coming up soon. We stuff ourselves full of a big turkey and enjoy time with the family. Love the idea of that, it's the only time of the year I can get away with my emotional eating binges. This year will be one to write about because we are driving up to Long Island, NY. It's the road trips you read about in your family book, the one where everyone ran in to a mishap and something unbelievable happened. Yet I am scared to say the story will be written about us three...and who knows what adventures lay ahead. If I had only given in to Randy and bought those expensive airplane tickets...we might have skipped out on all the fun. Who wants to rehash old arguments anyways, we are driving to NY, car seat and all.

The best thing about this is that everyone is going to be there...Mom, Wes, Brian, Grandma, Aunt Naomi, Uncle David, Sasha, and the talented and wonderful Lily. The anticipation of seeing my family is just making me full of excited energy...I have forgone my family for so long and now that I am grown with a family of my own never more have I realized the importance of family. Uncle Josh is not with us this year and the whole trip from the minute we leave until the minute we get back he will be on my mind. We need to make this a great Thanksgiving for him...especially make good food. He would love that...

I have a few more points to discuss on my article review on "Frequency Characteristics of American Sign Language". Most of you who are reading this might think nothing of this but to me I feel like I have unlocked the key to my language that I have spoken for years but now understand more of it than I have ever known.(Cheesy I know) Although these research articles are so condensed full of verbiage that just trying to wade through the thick bog of words makes you lost at times. It's hard work but anything worth anything in this world is hard work. We just got to fight through it...so instead of me PROCRASTINATING on my blog (which I am doing no matter how I can justify it) I will get back to my paper.

PEACE~LOVE~HAPPINESS

Friday, October 3, 2008

Leaving to the beach....

We are leaving to the beach today...ahhh yes! Sand, Surf, and family. Don't you love a good vacation?? Will post more when we all get there.

Warmly
-sw

Monday, September 29, 2008

The POLITICS is taking over my Blog..AHHHHH!!! RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN (I won't suggest driving because there might not be any gas left)!

I am in the middle of surfing the internet about politics and doing my posts for my masters program and felt like I had to give an update on my blog. I would say I am either multi-tasking or procrastinating. I would most likely assume the latter. :) That's all right, it's a Monday and I have all week to get my work done so that is my not so great excuse. It's the only day I can use it. LOL. I have been posting some very seeming "left-wing" posts lately but they have aligned with the strong way I feel. So you are going to have to put up with these until the election when Obama takes the office. If for some strange case McFart takes office we have been debating fleeing the country...maybe to North Korea or Russia...oh I don't know I heard they love Americans there.

This weekend we are heading down to the beach..(sigh) what a nice break to look forward to! I'll be posting some family pictures on the blog on Friday because we really have been doing some fun things around here. Not just talking politics around the house...I promise!

BTW....MOM IS GETTING MARRIED TO FANTASTIC WES THIS WEEKEND!!! CONGRATULATIONS!

Message about the Wall Street Buy Out from Michael Moore

http://www.michaelmoore.com/words/message/index.php?id=235

Thursday, September 25, 2008

A Very Important Message From…. Sarah Silverman

I had to put this up...my family is Jewish!! :) Sorry for the profanity.

See more Sarah Silverman videos at Funny or Die

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

9-16-08 Press Conference. BARACK OBAMA



There is NO doubt that Barack Obama should be our next president. We need a change from the Bush regime, we need a change. Our economy is in dire need of a person that understands that in the position of president you have to DO SOMETHING to make a change for ALL the people..not only for the rich and powerful. YES WE CAN!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Subject: Opinion from Gloria Steinem on Palin

Subject: Opinion from Gloria Steinem on Palin
> By Gloria Steinem
> September 4, 2008
> Here's the good news: Women have become so politically powerful that even the anti-feminist right wing -- the folks with a headlock on the Republican Party -- are trying to appease the gender gap with a first-ever female vice president. We owe this to women -- and to many men too -- who have picketed, gone on hunger strikes or confronted violence at the polls so women can vote. We owe it to Shirley Chisholm, who first took the "white-male-only" sign off the White House, and to Hillary Rodham Clinton, who hung in there through ridicule and misogyny to win 18 million votes.
>
> But here is even better news: It won't work. This isn't the first time a boss has picked an unqualified woman just because she agrees with him and opposes everything most other women want and need. Feminism has never been about getting a job for one woman. It's about making life more fair for women everywhere. It's not about a piece of the existing pie; there are too many of us for that. It's about baking a new pie.
>
> Selecting Sarah Palin, who was touted all summer by Rush Limbaugh, is no way to attract most women, including die-hard Clinton supporters. Palin shares nothing but a chromosome with Clinton. Her down-home, divisive and deceptive speech did nothing to cosmeticize a Republican convention that has more than twice as many male delegates as female, a presidential candidate who is owned and operated by the right wing and a platform that opposes pretty much everything Clinton's candidacy stood for -- and that Barack Obama's still does. To vote in protest for McCain/Palin would be like saying, "Somebody stole my shoes, so I'll amputate my legs."
>
> This is not to beat up on Palin. I defend her right to be wrong, even on issues that matter most to me. I regret that people say she can't do the job because she has children in need of care, especially if they wouldn't say the same about a father. I get no pleasure from imagining her in the spotlight on national and foreign policy issues about which she has zero background, with one month to learn to compete with Sen. Joe Biden's 37 years' experience.
>
> Palin has been honest about what she doesn't know. When asked last month about the vice presidency, she said, "I still can't answer that question until someone answers for me: What is it exactly that the VP does every day?" When asked about Iraq, she said, "I haven't really focused much on the war in Iraq."
>
> She was elected governor largely because the incumbent was unpopular, and she's won over Alaskans mostly by using unprecedented oil wealth to give a $1,200 rebate to every resident. Now she is being praised by McCain's campaign as a tax cutter, despite the fact that Alaska has no state income or sales tax. Perhaps McCain has opposed affirmative action for so long that he doesn't know it's about inviting more people to meet standards, not lowering them. Or perhaps McCain is following the Bush administration habit, as in the Justice Department, of putting a job candidate's views on "God, guns and gays" ahead of competence. The difference is that McCain is filling a job one 72-year-old heartbeat away from the presidency.
>
> So let's be clear: The culprit is John McCain. He may have chosen Palin out of change-envy, or a belief that women can't tell the difference between form and content, but the main motive was to please right-wing ideologues; the same ones who nixed anyone who is now or ever has been a supporter of reproductive freedom. If that were not the case, McCain could have chosen a woman who knows what a vice president does and who has thought about Iraq; someone like Texas Sen. Kay Bailey Hutchison or Sen. Olympia Snowe of Maine. McCain could have taken a baby step away from right-wing patriarchs who determine his actions, right down to opposing the Violence Against Women Act.
>
> Palin's value to those patriarchs is clear: She opposes just about every issue that women support by a majority or plurality. She believes that creationism should be taught in public schools but disbelieves global warming; she opposes gun control but supports government control of women's wombs; she opposes stem cell research but approves "abstinence-only" programs, which increase unwanted births, sexually transmitted diseases and abortions; she tried to use taxpayers' millions for a state program to shoot wolves from the air but didn't spend enough money to fix a state school system with the lowest high-school graduation rate in the nation; she runs with a candidate who opposes the Fair Pay Act but supports $500 million in subsidies for a natural gas pipeline across Alaska; she supports drilling in the Arctic National Wildlife Reserve, though even McCain has opted for the lesser evil of offshore drilling. She is Phyllis Schlafly, only younger.
>
> I don't doubt her sincerity. As a lifetime member of the National Rifle Assn., she doesn't just support killing animals from helicopters, she does it herself. She doesn't just talk about increasing the use of fossil fuels but puts a coal-burning power plant in her own small town. She doesn't just echo McCain's pledge to criminalize abortion by overturning Roe vs. Wade, she says that if one of her daughters were impregnated by rape or incest, she should bear the child. She not only opposes reproductive freedom as a human right but implies that it dictates abortion, without saying that it also protects the right to have a child.
>
> So far, the major new McCain supporter that Palin has attracted is James Dobson of Focus on the Family. Of course, for Dobson, "women are merely waiting for their husbands to assume leadership," so he may be voting for Palin's husband.
>
> Being a hope-a-holic, however, I can see two long-term bipartisan gains from this contest.
>
> Republicans may learn they can't appeal to right-wing patriarchs and most women at the same time. A loss in November could cause the centrist majority of Republicans to take back their party, which was the first to support the Equal Rights Amendment and should be the last to want to invite government into the wombs of women.
>
> And American women, who suffer more because of having two full-time jobs than from any other single injustice, finally have support on a national stage from male leaders who know that women can't be equal outside the home until men are equal in it. Barack Obama and Joe Biden are campaigning on their belief that men should be, can be and want to be at home for their children.
>
> This could be huge.
>
> Gloria Steinem is an author, feminist organizer and co-founder of the Women's Media Center. She supported Hillary Clinton and is now supporting Barack Obama.

Friday Morning...

 

Friday mornings seem to be the best mornings ever. This morning I had some time in the morning before work started so Maddox and I woke up early and just spent some time together. It's the kind of morning today when you look outside it is all hazy and overcast but it feels like you are living in the clouds. Everything just seems so peaceful and calm...and we were feeling that way too. We went to the library and the park and laughed all morning until it was time for him to go to daycare. Today is one of those days I always want to remember..

Tonight is date night for Randy and I. We are so lucky to have family here who love to watch Maddox so we have the opportunity to focus on growing our relationship. We haven't decided where we are going tonight...maybe out to have a few drinks in Downtown Greensboro. It's nice to be an adult every now and then.

Our mailbox project last weekend

 
 
 


We decided over the summer that we can complete at least one simple project around the house on the weekends where we have a little bit of extra time. So this past weekend we painted our mailbox and put some beautiful mum's around it. Maddox was a great helper with our weekend endevor. Over the next few weeks we will be updating some of the light fixtures around the house...just one thing at a time but slowly we are watching our house become our home.
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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

How to live your life


Beautiful Life

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Sunday, September 7, 2008

Fun at the Zoo

FREE SPIRITS!

BOUNCE U with Mom, Wes, & Maddox

Never once have we set foot in bounce u...actually we still haven't but Mom, Wes, and Maddox have. That gives us a new inspiration to go soon...they had such a fun time as you can clearly see on the VLOG's below.... we might go this Thursday.